Well, we've been home for about two weeks now. If you were to ask me how it's going my answer would vary depending on either the day or the particular moment during the day.
While we have our moments of laughter, our victories, our wrestling tournaments and sweet times -
If I were to be totally honest I'd tell you that there were many moments in the beginning where I questioned God, what he is having us do and what he is doing to my family.
If I were to be fully transparent I'd tell you this is the hardest thing I've ever done, and I don't know how we are making it other than strength from God.
If I were really real with you I'd tell you that I have no clue what we are doing other than 100% trusting and relying on God. He has been our teacher, source of strength, and fountain of joy.
If I were to see the rainbow in the midst of the storm I'd tell you that our family is growing and changing in a wonderful way and we are blessed to have Alfred as our son and brother. We thank God for how He is shaping each one of us - how He is teaching us to rejoice in all things.
In the midst of a rather rough evening Mo, Jake and Jo each grew as they ministered to their mom, dad and brother.
This last one says:
I pray for you to S.T.I.C with it
Strength; Trusting God; Impossible Love; Courage
Blessed by my whole family. -je
I am blessed by you all. Love and hugs.. -chelle
ReplyDeleteJohn, you have truly touched my heart! God couldn't have picked any of his children who would be a better father and mother to Alfred. Blessed is the word!! God is Good and although we don't always understand, he always come through with something better than we ever imagined! I too was blessed this Christmas. In addition to having all of my kids together and their dad, my son Reid blessed me with a car. I have been without one for two years and have felt that I was at my lowest level. But yes...God had blessed me! I want to get a plate to go on the front of the car that says "Blessed", as I truly am blessed. Thank you for sharing your story and for being the kind of person that God would trust to be a father to Alfred. Although it has been so many years since we have shared time together, my family is always in my heart! Hang in there and as with learning to adjust to a new baby, you all will adjust to a new child! Love you all and would love to hear how this miracle came about. With love! Your cousin Barb!
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